Lately I've been thinking about whether I'd like to return to being a YouTube vlogger. Long ago, in my teenage years, I had created my first YouTube account and uploaded my first video, "How to do Scene hair". Yup, you read that right, SCENE.
Sadly, yes, I went through that scene. If you don't remember it or have never heard of it, let me give you a few reminders of what it was: Big teased poofy 80s hair, chunky rings, cupcake print everything, brass knuckle necklaces, and raccoon make up. I was young okay? Anyways, I thought maybe I could be a scene queen of my space if I got noticed by making a couple of YouTube videos, and surprisingly, they were kind of a hit! My first video got a wopping 200 views the first day, and to me, that was alot! I decided to expand that and did "How to do Scene make up" next. That too began to get alot of views. I later did my most famous "How to do Big Sexy scene hair" which I remember got a good 1000 views the first week! I enjoyed the amount of views I was getting which at the time seemed like a lot to me. Over time as my views increased, so did the comments, and amongst those comments, we're the really mean ones. I didn't let it bother me, I was going to be a Scene Queen so I couldn't had let that bother me! It was until the comments were getting a lot worse on a daily basis. Every day after school, I'd get on to check my views and the comments. "Ugh she's so f*cking fat!" "Her hair looks like a rats nest. Eww" "Does she not shower? She looks so dirty!" "Someone tell her how ugly she is this is ridiculous" Pages, and pages of the most disgusting comments I have ever read in my entire life! I won't lie and say I didn't cry because there were times that I did. Even my older sister told me she hated seeing people say mean things about me when they didn't even know me. I remember one day after a bad day at school, I came home to the most terrible page of comments ever on my video. Enough is enough! I remember my feelings were so badly hurt that I didn't even care about the views, or the subscribers, and I deleted EVERY SINGLE VIDEO. In all honesty, to this day I regret it. Alot of people also liked my videos, and as a new YouTube vlogger, I had a decent amount of subscribers as well! If anything, I should had disabled the comments if they bothered me that bad, but what's done is done. Lately though, I've been wanting to start YouTube again. This time it will be more like my Blog. I'd upload videos of Benjamin's outfits and talk about baby products! I'm so undecided because I remember the negative comments about just me, this time around I'd die a little if I read someone talk about my son or my ways of parenting. Maybe I'll do a list of pros and cons and maybe if I start YouTube again, I'll be mature about it, and ignore the mean comments. Who knows! Maybe YouTube videos might be in my future again! Until then, I'll blog my days away! Comments are closed.
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